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Sunday, July 15, 2007

Reflect BaCk...

been really busy nowadays...
i hardly have time to update my blog..
juz by this time...
busy attending my add maths tuition..we have extra class from now onwards..
my tuition class timetable that is given by my teacher..

haiz..really tired..Ms.Cindy said she will teach us 7 chapters from our form 4 add maths..in 1 week...so she will teach 3 or 4 chapters in a day..
really boring..listening to her in the class...but i had to really pay my attention as everything she said is really really important...to score A1 for my add maths in my SPM..
as i'm aiming 7A's in my SPM..

well...oso in the end of my school exam..
the reason i'm working hard is...
1)mum say i can buy anything i want...
2)i will get a new handphone as my parents promise to give me one if i work hard..
3)i want to take this!!!! :

i took this when i was in form 4..i was the best student in art stream..[ok la..]

as many as i can..
actually i have already count how many i want...
1 is for top student in art streams..
2 is for top student in class..
3 is for best grade for account in art stream...
4 is for best grade for ekonomi in art stream...
5 is for best grade for science in art stream...
so all together is 5 trophy for myself..i don't want to laugh by my sister as she always look down on me..and also..this trophy will give my little sister more challenge..fun right...

4)i don't want to lose the others...of course..kia su ma...haha..[NOT!!]
5)mum called me to do so..so of course i obey her..she's my mum ma..
6)of course better result can help me get scholarship for myself..so that i don't need to study for form 6..
6)if i get scholarship that way i can leave KUCHING!!!![of course i need to be independant right..]
8)besides...better result will help me get a better job..more pay..$$$ that way i can buy lots of lots of clothes that i like..hehe...[that's everyone need...]

anyway...mum and dad decide to let me to watch Harry Potter and The Order Of Pheonix...as my little sister and i kept on wanting to watch it...
i thought they are going to give me some money to buy the tickets and watch the movie with my friends...but then it turn out my parents brought 4 tickets including themselves..joining us...
i was thinking "do they understand the movie..they might think it was boring as they didn't even seen the first harry potter movie before..
well then..the four of us went to the cineplex..i saw a lot of my friends were there..
i didn't dare to look at them...
over all it's okay...no really interesting as it don't shows the Quidditch Match..[my favourite part!!]
i hate this teacher!!!She's stupid!!!She force students to do something in the movie and always hang those stupid rules..like my school..YUCK!!!

what an idiotic things to do..
somehow i just don't understand why school needs rules..
if someone fights in school..let them be la..the one who was hurt is them not us..

so..i've started my studies eventhough i'm really really lazy...
but i have no choice but to do it..

i'm so STRESS OUT!!!I DIDN't where should i start!!!

my pretty calculator...haha..with new sticker of my name 'ling' given by my sweety sista..daphne...[luv u much..muakz!!]

of course with my baby ipod by my side..i won't felt bored with my studies..and sometimes..i even dreaming while doing my studies..hahahaha!!!!
i had to do some reminder..so that it would remind me to keep on studying but not DREAMING!!!got get lots of my weak subject pass..i mean score A for it of course..

umm...i took this pic tok peng..hehez..

well...
i did some list for the things i want for my birthday...so that i wouldn't forget of what i want to get for my birthday...

my lau po..who saw my list of my birthday present..she also write down hers..so that i will remember to give her one..hahaha...so funny de min..

suzanne gave this to me long ago..after she bought it from singapore..which she went there to do some church thingy..

Father Phang had been serving St.Peter's Church for about a year half like that..
he had passed away on the 13 of July that's is on Friday..how sad..
he's body is now at St.Joseph Church..i will miss him...may he rest in peace..my family will pray for him..so do i..
tomorrow will be his funeral..gotta say my last farewell to him...

i also had to attend my PBK tuition SPM tryouts test in the noon...so i really have to study my bm too..haiz..

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

fRieNdsHiP

friendship!!!
hah!!!
that's what everyone needs...
but...do you know..each of your friends are really sincere to you..??

do they believe you like how you believe so much in them...??
you share your secrets with them...but they don't share their secrets with you...
in fact..they told your secrets to someone else..is that a friend...??
if you tell them something...and maybe what you have said was wrong..or maybe what you have said was right..but your friend totally kept on saying that whatever you have said was wrong..how do you feel about it...was it like the words they said totally just crush your heart into pieces..

okay..maybe if you were wrong..but you accept it right...??What if you said that what your friend said was wrong...do they accept it..??They don't right??They will said that you were wrong again!!!
And if you are really sure that you really really weren't wrong about it..you would just stand up and had an argument with them..but in the end..you will stop right...?You will let them win it!!Because there's no point on arguing over a little matter that will broke up your own friendship...!!

Like you were saying about something with your OTHER friend..they will suddenly turn over and cut into your conversation..continuing the conversation...and you will be thinking of "What's that??!!"and the whole conversation that they ACTUALLY didn't knew anything about it will become LIKE THEY KNEW ABOUT the WHOLE THING you're talking about!!!

besides..you wouldn't care if they cut into your conversation...but somehow..they might be eavesdropping that you didn't even realize it!!!After knowing what they heard..they will start to spread the whole thing to everyone...and that's totally none of their business!!!Why don't they just kept quiet..you're thinking that..

You had a conversation qith your friends...it may be nice at first..but in the end...the whole conversation you had with them totally hurt yourself...because every words they have said just somehow humiliate you..like

"Oh..my mum's cooking is nice.."you said.
"Ya right..and our mum's cooking was not so nice like your mummmy's"they said.

And at that time, you're thinking that...'i didn't even say your mum's cooking was not nice...'
RIGHT!!!!????that hurts a lot right...
Whatever they said was like the whole things they want to said didn't just process through their brain!!!Why don't they think first before saying things like that out...!!!

What if you had something special...like..you haf your own way of doing things..and they would just follow your same style..OMG!!!that's totally a copycat!!!
If you want something badly...like eg. a handphone...and they would like want to have the same things like yours..in fact...they would get those things first before you even had it!!!!

ARGH!!!
Guys reading this..do you had the same feeling...??
well..i had!!!I've been so patient on them...but it looks like they do not even know it!!!They do not know they had hurt your feelings...they do not know they were trying to follow your way..they do not know the way they act makes me so mad on it..
it seems like they don't appreciate what you've done for them...it seems like they don't really care about our friendship...of all the happiness and sadness we had been through...

i'm really upset of them...
i meant it!!!!
if anyone acts like those things..please change your attitude!!!