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Should i believe you or not?
Questions coming through my mind...
'Are you lying to what all you have said?'i thought.
Sitting on my bed...surrounded by cold air...alone myself...
wondering if you really meant what you have said...
it's not what i thought about it too much...
it's all you have said just make me have to believe you...
unsured...gossips...just swimming in the air around my ears...
all those stuff is about you...why oh why...
i'm a smart girl in school...i can figure out all kinds of ways to solve any problems i face in my studies..
but when it comes to this...
i still don't get it...
my friends just don't want me to hang out with you too much...
spending too much time on you...believing you like i believe in myself...
i don't know which way i should go...
believing you...or my best friends...
both may be true...but some maybe...fake...
if i really count on you...can you make it...?
you are just so different like the others i have known before...
you rang me immediately that night after you dropped me off home...
we chatted for hours until i fell asleep...
i did have a nice sleep that night...
i felt like i'm a baby after you gave me all that love that i needed so much...
i'm grateful for what all you have gave to me...
i love all those stuff you gave to me...
i appreciate every second we had together...
i woke up every morning...thinking about you...
missed you so much...

but......
i'm still unable to accept what people said to me about you...
i can't believe you really did it..
not until i saw the whole scene by myself...

one night...i got a call from one of my friends...
i never believe a word they said to me...it's always true...
they took me out after i agree...
we stopped by the road side just opposite the bar you've always been to...

there you are standing with two girls...hugging...laughing...
without knowing my presence...
you were drunk...i didn't blame you for that...
as you were unaware of what you are doing...
My friends watched how i react...and him...
none of them say a word...
Out of a sudden you kissed one of the girl...
mouth to mouth...doing it so passionately...
like you known her for a long time..
i couldn't believe my eyes...what i've saw...
tears rolled down from my cheeks..
my friend, who sat beside me, patted me softly behind my back...
comforting me...
i covered my mouth as i'm afraid i will cried out loud...
"Now you know it...just leave that guy for good..."my friend said.
i buried my head in my hands...total unacceptable...
'You are a jerk...!!!'i thought.
My friends dropped me home...
i went into my room...
i try to control my feelings...but it was so hard...
i believe you so much..i put my whole trust on you...
but you cheated behind me...
you played with my feelings...
we broke up the next morning you call...
you did not ask why...you just accept my decision...
now...i know in the first place i should not be with you...
it's a history now...
a very painful story of mine...
i'm a victim in this story...i was hurt by you...
and you never care about it...
we never talked again since....

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Reunion

Yesterday was just so great...

i'm glad i can make to this reunion this time..

all of us enjoyed the fun...

some of them just changed

i hardly recognise some of them...

i'm glad some of them really make it..

but some of them just couldn't make it because some of them went to work

or out of Kuching...[sad]

Xie Peng, Clement, Tristan and Darren always buli me..[kek tiok]

Most of them still studying in CHMS NO1..

some of them already started their college classes...

mm....

Sharon said she will be studying f6...but in St Thom...

some of them just enjoying their holidayz without thinking any of it..

unfortunately i forgot to take our photos as i was enjoying teasing people too much..

and totally forgot about it..

sorry...

anywayz..

i hope to have another reunion next time...

cleaning job..

it's almost new year..so gotta get working...clean everywhere in the house...

very tiring...

my messy stuff usually don't put properly in place...that why i always find hard time to find my stuff..

it's new year...so everything must be neat and clean...

MESS!!!

Mum gave me her own make-up kit...as she don't use it.

i was going to buy 1 for myself in KL...

luckily i did not spend it..

i will be able to use them for new year..yay!!

the mess into a cupboard...all make-up stuff into make-up box..
now that my room not messy!!!

My New Hair

got my hair done for new year

BEFORE

AFTER
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AFTER
BEFORE
AFTER

MY NEW LOOK

I want!!!!

I want to go overseas to study!!!!

i want!!!!

argh!!!

lots of the people, my friends i know were going to overseas to futher their studies!!!

ish!!!

i want too!!!

i hate it!!!

i'm so jealous!!!

i wish i have the chance to go overseas to futher my studies...

now i still have to wait for my f5 result come out then i continue my studies to f6..

ish!!!

i wish i win toto then i fly far far away from stupid Kuching to study!!!

i want to go NY study!!!

i hate staying in Kuching!!!

boring Kuching!!!ARGH!!!

someone can just sponsor me to NY study...i don't want to see Kuching people's face!!!

a!!!!!!!

May God grant my wish!!!!