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Should i believe you or not?
Questions coming through my mind...
'Are you lying to what all you have said?'i thought.
Sitting on my bed...surrounded by cold air...alone myself...
wondering if you really meant what you have said...
it's not what i thought about it too much...
it's all you have said just make me have to believe you...
unsured...gossips...just swimming in the air around my ears...
all those stuff is about you...why oh why...
i'm a smart girl in school...i can figure out all kinds of ways to solve any problems i face in my studies..
but when it comes to this...
i still don't get it...
my friends just don't want me to hang out with you too much...
spending too much time on you...believing you like i believe in myself...
i don't know which way i should go...
believing you...or my best friends...
both may be true...but some maybe...fake...
if i really count on you...can you make it...?
you are just so different like the others i have known before...
you rang me immediately that night after you dropped me off home...
we chatted for hours until i fell asleep...
i did have a nice sleep that night...
i felt like i'm a baby after you gave me all that love that i needed so much...
i'm grateful for what all you have gave to me...
i love all those stuff you gave to me...
i appreciate every second we had together...
i woke up every morning...thinking about you...
missed you so much...

but......
i'm still unable to accept what people said to me about you...
i can't believe you really did it..
not until i saw the whole scene by myself...

one night...i got a call from one of my friends...
i never believe a word they said to me...it's always true...
they took me out after i agree...
we stopped by the road side just opposite the bar you've always been to...

there you are standing with two girls...hugging...laughing...
without knowing my presence...
you were drunk...i didn't blame you for that...
as you were unaware of what you are doing...
My friends watched how i react...and him...
none of them say a word...
Out of a sudden you kissed one of the girl...
mouth to mouth...doing it so passionately...
like you known her for a long time..
i couldn't believe my eyes...what i've saw...
tears rolled down from my cheeks..
my friend, who sat beside me, patted me softly behind my back...
comforting me...
i covered my mouth as i'm afraid i will cried out loud...
"Now you know it...just leave that guy for good..."my friend said.
i buried my head in my hands...total unacceptable...
'You are a jerk...!!!'i thought.
My friends dropped me home...
i went into my room...
i try to control my feelings...but it was so hard...
i believe you so much..i put my whole trust on you...
but you cheated behind me...
you played with my feelings...
we broke up the next morning you call...
you did not ask why...you just accept my decision...
now...i know in the first place i should not be with you...
it's a history now...
a very painful story of mine...
i'm a victim in this story...i was hurt by you...
and you never care about it...
we never talked again since....

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