days...

okay...

not going to school on tuesday and wednesday...my fav sister is not going...

school was just usual...teachers were diccussing with us about our mock SPM papers...it is like everyone i not in their mood...none of us really pay attention in class....

i can say that when i went to school on Monday..it's like "where is everyone?"

half of the class students were absent...only left a few Malays and us the Chinese...

it is Raya of course..

no one would want to come to school...

eventhought teachers were still teaching it was like they were not teaching...

i have no time to prepare for my REAL SPM....

i'm so freaking stress right now...

not knowing what should i do if i do not do them starting now on...

but i just could not get them into my brain...

the moment i open my Sejarah book..i was like...really headache...

and really want to sleep...

so i took my nap...

and that was it..i slept the whole day..

at night i do not do my studies...

it is just so weird because the next day i have no exam...

look at me...

i kept on waiting for the last minute to prepare for my exam...

i did my last minute study for my mock SPM...now you see..

i have been nagging about not having enough time to finish my study...

and now...

i'm sitting here..

eating foods..more and more foods..

and i'm getting fater and fater..

i have hard time looking for prefect clothes to wear to go out!!!!

argh!!!

but i just could not control myself from eating...

especially...

TOBLERONE[DARK CHOCOLATE]

chocolates...they just so yummy...

okay..forget about books..[they make me feel dizzy]

Raya...

no transport...???

it's like everyone of my friends were like almost quarrel because of a

transport problem...??

what is that...we were friends right..

now i'm really headache of this thing..

both of my friends were like separate..

Group A wants to go this way..but Group B just do not want to follow them...

so how are we going to do..

quarrel???fight??

hey..i'm a middle person here..

i have to run both groups of my friends..

i was not going to choose one...i love them all....and i'm not going to do that...

the Raya thing if just cannot make it lets just say cannot make it..

we need not to say like

"you wan you go la..."

what do you mean...

???

you are mad about me...

following the others but not you...

i say.."lets go together..."

but no one agrees...

okay fine...

that's it!!!!

i'm so pissed off!!!!

i do not know what makes you all act towards each other...

it's just so not good...

cant we just like lets sit down and talk together...

lets say no more and be friends...

we were friends..

and we were good friends...

*sigh*

i had this bengkel...some sort like seminar will be going on at a hotel..

not gonna tell where it is until after i went there..

but i was not sure if i'm going...

my tuition teacher just need all of his students to stay overnight at the hotel

as we might stay up late doing revision at the hall...

3 days 2 night...

the problem is...

my dad do not allow me to go there...

i do not care if i was going to overnight at there or not...

i just wanted to go to the seminar that's it...

it is important to me..

SPM!!!

hello!!!!

i do not know why he is not letting me to go...

i'm good...i mean..i do not do anything that is not good right there..

dad say if i went there i just play...

WHAT!!!!!?????

PLAY!!!!???

I DID NOT HAVE TIME FOR THAT....!!!

every hours i'm spending my time in that hotel

learning things !!!!preparing for my SPM!!!not playing!!!

i'm serious here...no joking!!!

my tuition teacher said that everyone must attend it as it is important for us..

if our parents just do not allow then we have to tell him

and he will try to talk to our parents about it...

okay...

boys and girls are in separate rooms...so...relax..

there's not going to be some stuff going on....

i had told my teacher about it and he say he will help me to tell my dad..

Dad now is really really sick and i just did not want to make having a hard time...

i ask him about it once...but he say no again..

okay..i'm done...

i'm not going to say more..

my cousin is going..her dad agree..

both of us had a plan..

she will help me to tell my dad on letting me go to the seminar as she was there too....

she will tell her dad to tell my dad about it...

so i just hope it works...

that way it needed not to trouble me anymore...

i'm just really tired and pitty my dad...

he had seen the doctor thrice...

his coughing getting worst and worst...

so just see how it goes this sunday

when i had barbecue with my big family at my cousin's house...

wish me luck

x0x0